Talk to Psychiatry on I Am Having Suicidal Thoughts, Taking Energy Drinks Before Doing Important Tasks, Concentration Issues, Anger, In Attentiveness. Watch Too Much Porn And Then Ejaculate

My name is Arslan and i am from sahiwal. I been fired from last 4 jobs due to my mental illness which is from last 10 years. I am having blasphemous thoughts. Ziada sex k related issues hain. Porn bht ziada dakhna. Ejaculate karna. Her 3 din bad ye hota hy pichle 10 saal sa. Cheezun ku samjhne main ghalti karta hun. Complicated chezun ku dimag pick nae kar paaataa. Islamic values ku bhura bhala smjhna ya dil hi dil main kehna. Memory loss. During work ya normal activities karte hue penis movement main rehta hy. Social activities main involve nae hota. Lost relationships. Agar koi cheez dimag main aaa gyi k karni hy tu zaror karni hy. Main aik doctor sa medicine la raha hun wo kisi psychologist sa session lene sa b mana karte hain. Unki medicine sa kuch faraq hy. Main sexologist sa milna cahta hun. Kuch smajh nae aaa raha kia karun. Please Guide me.